SUCKY DUCKY

I refer back to mua blog and I found out something that's so unbelievable.Nowdyas,I go out with my cousins more than my one and only sister.Since when is the last time we go out,I really couldn't remember anymore.Everytime I ask you out,you just give me a very cold look.Even cousins asked you out for the pass few days,you rejected all of them.

I don't know who you are now.I don't understand why you had change a lot.We never seriously sit down and talk to each ohe for quite some times.I missed those day we always shared whatver is in our mind.No hidden secret,jokes,laughter etc.Where has all these gone to?You said you are sick and yet today you went out with your bf.

This moring again you quarel with mom.You said mom don;t care about you and doesn't treat you as her daughter.How could all this words come out frm your mouth?You are hurtting mom's heart.If you think so,I rather you stay at your bf hse.Please just don't come home and hurt people that care for you the most.

Yesterday I refer back to my calender and found out that we haven't been hang out for a very long time.Mom told her this morning and she just kept quiet.After she went out,mom came in my room and chatted with me.I couldn't stand it and tears falling down frm my eyes.I really missed those days.Do there ever come back again?

I don't wanna live in such house which without love,care,warmness and aliveness.All I could feel is emptyness,blankness and coldness in it.I was considering to move out intead of living unhappily here.I'm sick and tired of all this shit.The partially reason is because of my sis and on the other hands my dad is sick as in really sick.

It's not that I don't wanna care bout him but is just that is all out of my control.I'm scared and worry of what will hapen in the next minute.I feel so useless that I couldn't give a hand to him not even to my ownself.That why I'm trying to escape and run away.This is why I like to stay out late and not going home after class cause I HATE to face it all by myself.

SUFFER,STRESS,PRESSURE all in one!!!